This is Major Love

Salam and Hi,

Hm awkwardnya nak update blog.

Banyak benda nak di update sebenarnya sampai dah banyak cerita basi. so cerita basi tu pause la dulu. dah alang alang basi . Hewhew.

Well, Ramadhan has already ended. Touched. I don't think i give my best for this year's Ramadhan. Allah. Hoping to meet lovely Ramadhan again next year and do much better . InsyaaAllah.

Right now, I Actually waiting for ketupat untuk direbus. Lol with the husband . So , stealing lil time to update my blog as I promised because there's a lot of thing i wanna share. Sebenarnya lah.

Soooo, I'm already married for 4 months and i'm having an amazing life Alhamdulillah. More than i've ever thought. I went to Sydney for honeymoon and it's a very nice place and I met lovely people. (Ok tu KALAU rajin entry lain sbb ada org demand gambar & cerita2 honeymoon.haha)

I tweet yesterday that I feel excited for this year's Raya COMPARE TO LAST YEAR. And they said because first time raya with a husband. That's trueeee but the truth is,

I had the worst (for me okay for me) year and Raya last year and honestly because of my husband ahahahahaha. Ok jap,bagi feel semangat bercerita. Last year bermulanya 'dipaksa' kahwin and bila menolak tu of course banyak masalah ye dak? aku jenis rapat sangat sangat dengan family , jadi benda mcm ni tetibe jadi major problem yg renggangkan aku dengan family. I felt so bad. so so bad and  only Allah and I know how lifeless and useless I think i am waktu tu. I don't really enjoy my whole year nor raya last year but things get better sebab aku setuju waktu malam 2nd day of raya.

And maybe "marriage" thingy made me feel i had the ugliest and worst year. 2011 WAS bad. I hate it. I did. Really hate it. No, I did hate my husband( eh ofcourse before jadi husband) Dan benarlah Firman Allah,

"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu sedangkan ia baik untukmu dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu sedangkan ia buruk untukmu. Allah mengetahui sedangkan kamu tidak tahu." 

[ Surah. Al Baqarah : 216 ]

Alhamdulillah since i got married, my life is calmer than ever. Problems come but I can handle it. Allah is here with me and guide me in making the best decision ever.

Ambik, benci benci. kan dah kahwin. kan dah sayang. hahaha -,- I thought my raya last year is the worst because of him. And today, since tomorrow dah raya. i need to say that i got a bigger family, and somehow i feel excited because of him,my husband. I feel so much grateful to have him. Allah sangat adil bukan?

Izinkan entry aku cerita excited pasal ini. BECAUSE I CAN HAHAHAH ok tak tak.

Ramadhan ends and I really hope we'll meet Ramadhan again next year and raya in this year would be much better . Full with happiness, Love and Barakah from Allah S.W.T insyaaAllah.

ANNNDDD I HAVE A SURPRISE. It should be earlier tapi ok Tuhan bagitahu hati ini waktu terbaik. Dah, asyik tak menjadi je. Ni baru menjadi.

I was admitted to hospital last month . I told people , it's because My back hurts so much ,and it feels worse because i had back injury last 2 years. I couldn't have any proper treatment or take specific medicine for this muscle swollen . BETUL LA TU APA AKU BAGITAHU. Tapi tambahannya, i was too mcuh dehydrated, i lost 9 kgs because my body can't accept any food nor drink. I kept vomitting EVERY SINGLE FOOD OR DRINK I TOOK. Doctor kata, fully recovernya maybe next year , and takboleh busykan diri sangat or walk too much.

BUT,WHY NEXT YEAR?

BECAUSE, I AM 15 WEEKS PREGNANT. 

Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah,That's why I feel blessed, excited and entah.nanti dah beranak lah baru cerita pengalaman. ( ada org minta jugak) Sakit. Tapi , i'm getting better and entah lah,  tak teringat sangat pun 14 weeks full of pain tu sebab lagi excited pasal this lovely human yang tengah membesar in my stomach :')

Sempena Raya esok, (kena cepat ketupat jakgi siap)

FORGIVE ALL MY MISTAKES I MIGHT HAVE DONE TO ANY OF YOU,PLEASE PLEASE BE GENEROUS AND WONDERFUL. MAY ALLAH BLESS OUR DAYS AHEAD . SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR BATIN.

And may I ask any of you who's reading this?

Please pray for my health. Baby's health. Your Du'a will be too precious for me and for every of your deed insyaaAllah , counted and rewarded , Ameeeen. Allah knows.



Thank you so much. Selamat beraya and have a great time with family and friends!

Sincerely, 

Dena